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In 2020, during the height of the COVID pandemic, I found myself on the front lines of an enormous headcount reduction.

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I wasn’t selected for redundancy, but for months, I didn’t know that. The uncertainty gnawed at me daily. I was working in HR, orchestrating the very process that might end my own job, while trying to hold it together. Every announcement, every reshuffle, every email with a vague subject line felt like a potential ending.

That same year, I was also caring for my mum, who had been diagnosed with terminal cancer. She died not long after. The following year, my dad died of cancer too. I barely had time to grieve one loss before I was hit with another. And still, work expected me to carry on.

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 A couple of years later, and it happened again. Another round of redundancies. Once more, I survived. And once more, it didn’t feel like a relief. It felt like emotional whiplash.

I was doing more work, but feeling less valued. Taking on administrative tasks that didn’t match my skillset or title. My confidence eroded. I felt powerless, insecure, and constantly on edge, waiting for the axe to fall. Paranoia crept in. I became disengaged, disconnected, and exhausted.

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As someone in HR, I wasn’t just surviving redundancy, I was managing the process, delivering the bad news, holding space for others while my own capacity was breaking down. There was no real support, no meaningful acknowledgment of the toll it was taking. Just pressure to keep smiling and crack on.

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Eventually, I broke.

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I had a full-blown breakdown, riddled with anxiety, panic attacks, and burnout. I didn't just lose my motivation, I lost myself.

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But that breakdown became the turning point.

It forced me to reassess everything: how I lived, how I worked, and what I valued. I began to heal. Through coaching, hypnotherapy, and deep personal work, I rebuilt. And now, I help others do the same.

 

As a coach, I work with people who’ve survived redundancy but are quietly falling apart. The ones who still have a job, but not the energy, confidence, or clarity to keep going the way they are. I help them rebuild—not just their careers, but their self-worth, their mindset, and their sense of direction.

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Because surviving isn’t the same as thriving.

And you deserve more than just making it through.